I keep coming here to write, opening up a new post and then going away again. Everything has been going in other directions lately. But it feels like important shifts are occurring. Maybe it’s been necessary to hold the changes within – to nurture, not to rush them. Which makes it hard to talk about yourself in a space like this.
My cameras have been left sitting in the cupboard. I feel like I’m not ready to return to them yet. I’m just satisfying my photo-urges with a little bit of digital work. Mostly playing with the Hipstamatic App on my iPhone, which I’ve coveted for so long. But even getting bored of that.
Did you feel the energies of the recent string of eclipses and the planetary alignments that they brought with them? Lara Owen’s updates are really thorough and enlightening, with a huge bonus that they’re in GMT, so I don’t need to translate the days and times to fit. I should have noted that we are in a void of course moon phase today, before I started butting my head against all the things I wanted to get done, and winding up with this headache.
In the middle of this strange space, we had my Sister’s wedding. This is me, holding my nephew, Ben, my Sister, Jo, and an old school chum, Sarah, with her bubba, George. Sarah really did have the best hat of the day.
Rubin made a great page-boy, and was completely absorbed in the spirit of the party.
Strangely, though, I hardly took any photographs. I had planned to shoot some film for them – to counter the hired photographers inevitable use of digital images… but it didn’t happen. I was so wrapped up in everything, and so very involved in it all, that time seemed to fly by and leave me no time for playing with cameras. It was a very lovely day, but I feel a bit bereft as far as photographic matters go.
That would kind of sum me up at the moment. Toni tells me she calls times like this “the tide is out”. At least I’m not fighting it any more. And I feel that I might come back changed in some way, as well as revived and renewed. But I’d better not be placing expectations like that upon myself at this stage, in case I force it or break the thing before it’s ready.
Oh, I keep forgetting to do this bit…
I want to thank Suzi for all her help, and her beautiful calligraphy, which went into forming the Guestbook for Jo & Chris (and the Wedding Album – not quite completed yet). Here are a few photos that show how it turned out:
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I totally get that! And am there myself!
Don’t fight it….embrace it.
I know it will all change.
Oh sam, you’ve done a lovely job of the guestbook… rubin looks so handsome… and your run-up-to-it-all-frazzledness doesn’t show at all!
mmm… i often feel like i’ve got to wait a while before i can talk about ‘stuff’, waiting for myself to catch up with cosmic downloads!
xo
Thank you, lovely ladies. xx
Ah Sam, that all looks so wonderful! Sometimes it is best just to sit back in the paddling pool of life and forget to paddle for a bit. The last eclipse was a heavy one for sure… Rubin is looking so lovely, and that hair! Love your wedding books as well, your work sits so well with Suzi’s. Love the binding as well! Your sister must have been so pleased.